Don't know where I'm going yet..

But I sure am getting there.

Good lyric there. Hi everybody! How's things? I'm such a stranger here these days--I keep up with most of the journals I always read before, but I never seem to update myself. Mainly because, again, I'm back to dialup and I hate dialup. But I haven't really had much interesting to write about, either. Of course, journals are meant for the mundane as well as the extraordinary.. but anyway.

Have I mentioned ever before that I absolutely love having a place of my own? The other night I decided to sleep on the futon in the living room--not because I had to by any means, but just because I *could*. That's so cool. But I got some glowy stars up on the ceiling of my bedroom shortly after moving in, so it's pretty sweet to sleep in there too, of course. :) Only the beginning of the stars, though--I hope to surpass even the lovely stellar array I had at my first apartment, way back in Titusville, which was pretty darn cool. But that was a much smaller room, so it would be a lot of time and effort to really match it here. But what else do I have but time? :)

Things otherwise are pretty decent. Work has been good lately, though I of course wish I made more money! Today I go in to close, and then I'm off tomorrow. Think I might head out and feel out some automotive options. I love my Radley dearly, but I would really be a lot better off if I had less of a car payment every month. A lot less. Like nothing at all. So I'm almost thinking that I'm going to see into just shedding Radley and getting something very cheap for now--talking a couple hundred dollars for an old beater. Something with personality! I poked around online for an old Plymouth Scamp, like I used to have (and really dug!), but no luck anywhere close by. I'll have to get a paper and check the classifieds.. wonder if Friday's paper is good for that. But anyway, first I need to see what I can do to get clear of the truck--that might not really be feasible anyway. We'll see.

My birthday's coming up in a few weeks, but that's not important. More important is that next week I have Tuesday and Wednesday off, and believe I'll go to Louisville and use the free tickets for Six Flags that I have. Sweet. I might just go one day, or I might stay overnight if it's really cool and use both of them. Probably the former, though, knowing me. Hm, I should probably keep Radley until after that expedition, come to think of it. :) Then the first full weekend of October I have off--I hope to go camping or hiking or both with Heather. That would be cool. Well, if Heather's still a part of my life by then, I guess.

Heather.. we're still together, though I must confess that (as you can see already) I've been feeling a bit less than optimistic about it lately. Nothing major, but that's just it. She started school a week or two ago, her first real full-time semester of graduate school, and obviously it's a big tax on her time. And between that and the distance between us, the only time we can really see each other is weekends, and sometimes that's not even possible if I work or she goes camping or soaring or whatnot with her friends there. I think that reality is kind of settling in for both of us, as the novelty of the whole thing also inevitably fades a bit. I think there's more than enough compatibility between us to pursue the relationship, but obviously it has to be a mutual thing--I wonder if she feels quite enough to really make the effort at it. She might be daunted by the time aspect, just overwhelmed with school, or finally seeing through and getting sick of me.. I haven't felt hugged by her e-mails nearly as much in the past week or so, whatever the reason. Well, I have a definite tendency towards paranoia, I have to say, so it could all be nothing and everything is fine, aside from the time constraints. But my paranoia so often turns out to be correct. I hate being right so often, sometimes. I just hope she'll tell me if she thinks there's nothing more for us, rather than let me go on believing otherwise, y'know?

But anyway, I think that's enough of an update for now. Hope everyone out there is doing well!